Saturn/ Capricorn Archetype by Prophetisssa, channeled 2020

 I wrote this in 2020 about Saturn and ruling sign of Capricorn.

What happened in 2020: 2020 saw the decade begin with the COVID-19 pandemic, which led to global social and economic disruption, mass cancellations and postponements of events, worldwide lockdowns, and the largest economic recession since the Great Depression in the 1930s.

AND 

• George Floyd protests.
• First impeachment of President Trump.
• US Congress in 2020.
• 2021.
• January 6 Capitol attack.

Okay, now let's understand Saturn deeper, the ruling matrix of the sign of Capricorn. 

• December 19, 2017, to March 21, 2020: Saturn re-entered Capricorn, a significant transit bringing collective focus on structure, tradition, and responsibility, noted for major events like the start of the COVID pandemic.
• Retrograde Periods: Saturn dipped back into Sagittarius briefly before fully settling in Capricorn, and had brief retrograde moments within Capricorn during this time. 
• The conjunction of Jupiter and Pluto in Capricorn, prominent in 2020, signifies intense transformation and expansion within established structures, impacting global systems, big business, and personal ambition, bringing themes of power, corruption, rebuilding, and deep societal shifts, with Pluto's transformative depth meeting Jupiter's expansive growth in Capricorn's domain of responsibility, tradition, and worldly status, often revealing extremes of wealth or breakdown. 

Saturn can only be accessed by the evolution of the spiritual upon the material plane. And by the ability to have 1.Crafted, 2.Perfected and then 3. Mastered the art of skilled survival. Saturn is an ancestor of the heavens, Saturn is one with authority and only accepts the BEST of students. You cannot access Saturn without the physical will to LIVE, exist with MEANING and CREATE the union of physical/material and spiritual elevation. Unifying the material and spiritual plane is the pinnacle of human consciousness. Humans are tested by Saturn on their will to exist and independent beings who can create this elevated existance. 

This is why bloodline is especially important, if your blood was colonized, exploited and stripped of soul and worth, then it means it was tested at a survival level. You are doing the most and it means, once you transform by healing the body/ bloodline your willpower is greater than others’. This is why many witches of color are born with struggles around poverty and the body. When your power is unleashed, it will come blaring. 

Saturn is represented in the tarot by the Devil archetype. 

The duality of the Devil

Self destruction, addiction, darkness is absent of God, 

incites humans towards self-destruction, slaves of karma 

Emotions: depression, heaviness, tendencies to escape reality and material obligations, hateful authority or parental figures. 

Symbols: demons - which are inner or psychic fears draining lifeforce. 

vs. 

Self-creation 

Freedom 

independent, 

discipline, Darkness is not absent but it is a creative space. 

Emotions: seriousness, purposeful, initiators of abundance for the entire community or familial group. 

Symbols: mountains, ancestors, elders. 

When I started my instagram, I created videos about Saturn and the devil. But I am not a cult of the devil, I am a cult of destroying oppressive curses on the bloodline imposed by capitalism. The devil has been inside us since human history was colonized by white european criminals. When I was a teenager my fantatical christian grandmother said if I believed in Jesus, I had to believe in the Devil. I find this a fascinating paradox. Saturn’s vibration has been colonized and used by evil white men. Saturn is not evil, saturn is a creative ancestor masked by the matrix as a power hungry, political authority. In every nation, there is the highest ruling patriarchal figure. 

I believe our idea of the “devil” or Saturn has to evolve, as Saturnian energy is having a spiritual metamorphosis, this is why pluto (planet of death and rebirth) and jupiter (planet of spirituality and guidance) are both in capricorn. 

End of channeled message

Now, it's 2026, and Trump is president once again. And it seems like not much has changed, as our reality is caught in a disparity, caught in US led imperialism and warfare, and a healthcare system that exploits black and brown bodies. To break the spell of Saturn, we need to understand that our minds are actively participating in upholding these realities through money and capital. Once we are able to invest money in true community efforts and stop living lives of indulgement and brands, then we can become financial transformers within our communities. Building our own capital and our own political power to kill the old and decaying structures of patriarchal capitalism and imperialism.

If you are reading this through an iPhone, you are doing it wrong.

But don't worry, we have time to work on it.

Love,

Itzel.

luna llena y las cosas malas

LOVE y compasión

Un día, me di cuenta de que seguía reprimiendo mis malos hábitos, cualidades y secretos. Me juzgaba inconscientemente por momentos de índole sexual, acuerdos tácitos, infidelidades hacia los demás y hacia mí misma; no podía aceptar mi maldad. 

Cabe destacar que nuestra sombra es algo de lo que nos enorgullecemos, por estar en sintonía con nuestra intuición y emociones. Porque yo soy parte de una generación de mujeres más rebeldes, más disonantes ante el sistema heteropatriarcal. Aquí, donde usamos nuestra emociones, sexualidades y relaciones como poder. Nuestra sombra es una imagen deslumbrante de cualidades que esconden secretos y una naturaleza más profunda de nuestra propia consciencia, que nos une a la raíz de la Tierra.  

Mi lado oscuro, mis defectos que nada tienen que ver con mis juicios vanos y superficiales sobre mí misma, esos tan fácil de exponer. Mas bien los que oculto, mi ira, mi dureza, mi fuerza al hablar, mi vulnerabilidad, mi suciedad, mi desorden, mis malas decisiones. Y tantas otras cosas.

¿Aceptarlo? ¿O debo seguir adelante?

No, mi alma se purificaría si aceptara mis secretos y sanara mi comunicación conmigo misma. 

Puedo darme cuenta de las cualidades que siento más victimizadas en mi interior. Nuestros secretos son cosas que hemos juzgado como malas, que vienen de emociones que se sienten sin poder. Al ir interiormente, podemos proteger estas emociones o vulnerabilidades "malas" y que, por lo tanto, comenzamos a reprimir y ocultar. La represión se expresa a través del inconsciente, y esto lo puedes observar  en las relaciones donde se han experimentado los mayores conflictos. 

La gente no muestra sus sombras ni su lado oscuro en público, ni tampoco exhibe sus defectos. Las redes sociales y TikTok son una colección de adultos con identidades infantiles heridas que intentan satisfacer o sanar su ego. Las fotos que tomamos proyectan las mejores sonrisas, los momentos más íntimos o brillantes; todos tenemos una parte de la conciencia que busca ser reconocida y aceptada por estas cualidades positivas percibidas.

Sin embargo, todo ser humano posee también en su mente otras cualidades seductoras, un patrón kármico que, al cometer errores, frena su crecimiento y, por ende, lo profundiza. Es toda una paradoja crecer al equivocarnos, en lugar de tener siempre la razón o ser los buenos. En mi caso, inconscientemente culpaba a mi madre y a mi abuela por su falta de ambición, su victimismo y sus votos de pobreza, jurando en la adolescencia que yo no haría lo mismo. Todas estas reacciones inmediatas a mi infancia herida me llevaron a una rebeldía inconsciente, a la falta de autoestima y a reafirmar mis votos de pobreza con mi madre y mi abuela. Yo termine en los mismos lugares que mis ancestras maternas, en el mismo círculo que nos mantiene unidas. 

Lo llamamos sombra porque lo ocultamos, pero es por elegancia. Maquillamos la fealdad en vez de detenernos a reflexionar. Nuestro mal comportamiento no tiene por qué ser público, pero no debe pasar desapercibido. Cuando no somos conscientes, creamos juicios externos que perpetúan el karma. Las personas que rechazamos, los juicios que proyectamos sobre los demás, las palabras que decimos sobre los demás y el mundo, y sobre todo, todo lo que decimos de nosotros mismos en contraste con el mundo, todo esto debe ser escuchado con atención, transcrito y adaptado a un lenguaje más profundo que nos permita ver nuestras propias heridas y nuestra esencia en el alma del mundo.

Esto es amor verdadero hacia todos los que nos rodean, pero sobre todo hacia nosotros mismos: ser honestos con nosotros mismos. 

full moon in Taurus and bad things

 LOVE and compassion

One day, I realized I kept dying my bad habits, qualities, and secrets of badness. I judged myself unconsciously por moments of sexual nature, unspoken agreements, infidelities to others and myself, I could not accept my badness. 

Notice, the shadow nature is something we pride in being, 

in being intune with our intuition and emotions. 

Our shadow nature is a glamour shot of qualities that have deeper natures and secrets to our own consciousness. 

My bad side, my ugly qualities that have nothing to do with my vain, superficial judgments of myself. My anger, my harshness, my strength in speaking, my weakness in being vulnerable. So many other things.

Accept it? Or must i move on, 

No, it would make the soul more pure if I accepted my own secrets and healed my communication. I can adapt the qualities that feel the most victimized inside me, protecting the emotions that feel judged as bad, and therefore I started repressing. Repressing anything is expressed through unconsciousness, which is read through relationships in which you have had the most conflict. 

In my case, I unconsciously blamed my mother and grandmother for their low ambitions, victim nature, and poverty vows, as an adolescent swearing I would not do the same. All these immediate reactions to my wounded childhood led to unconscious rebelling, lack of self-worth and a reaffirming of my poverty vows with my mother and my grandmother. That is ending in the same places as my maternal ancestors, that is in the same circle that keep us together. 

People do not work their shadows publicly, or dark side, and neither do they show their bad qualities. Social media and tiktok are a collection of adults with wounded childhood identities trying to satisfy their egos or heal the ego. The photos we take project the best smiles or the most intimate moments or brilliant ones, we all have a part of consciousness that wants to be recognized and accepted for these perceived positive qualities. 

Regardless, every human has also with their mind another, seducing qualities, a karmic patterning that retracts your growth by committing mistakes, therefore deepening growth. Quite the paradox, to grow when we make errors, as oppose to always being the right one, or the good one.  

We call it shadow because we hide it, but it is out of elegance. We put make up on the ugliness, instead of pausing and reflecting. Our bad behavior need not be public, but it must not go unaware. As when we are unaware we create outer judgments that further carry out karma. The people that we refuse to accept, the judgments that we project onto others, the words we speak about others and the world, and especially, all you say about yourself in difference to the world, all this should be carefully listened to, transcribed and adapted to a deeper language that will allow you to see your own woundedness and essence within the soul of the world. 

This is real love to everyone around you but most especially yourself:

Being honest with yourself. 

full moon in Taurus, money

 FULL MOON IN TAURUS 

MONEY

The stars align in the sign of money, 

And I have spent a lot of time thinking about why I chose to experience a family dynamic where people thought negatively about money. To think negatively about money, I mean, my community was disempowered economically because it was not the creator of the matrix system by which money works through. It is easy to make money fast when you are part of the inherited system, that is what I mean by matrix system. But just because this was so, did not mean I was meant to be disempowered the same way… If, and only if, many coincidences align. 

Taurus, you see, is my sun sign. Taurus rules money because it represents the system of values and material senses by which we acquire and possess. Taurus also is ruled by the planet Venus, Venus rules beauty, art and money. Beauty in a woman is highly valued and is the equivalent to art and love, feminine beauty has inspired art for centuries. In the current day, Beauty moves power and money. Beauty is also an investment, women are subjected to get treatments by which standards of beauty are satisfied, like nails or plastic surgeries or investing in expensive neutral, awfully boring make up that most of society values. This is all in abstract ways, artistic but definitely not profound. 

In astrology, I learned that one sign can have many manifestations actually being the same energy. Beauty can attract money, money can attract luxury, luxury can attract pleasure. Love can be beauty, love can be money, love can also be luxury. But all of that can easily be transformed if the energy is not firmly rooted. For example, if your family is rooted in values about taking care of money, investing, and overall, good money health, then you will have these same values and it will be easy to carry on such a tradition. What happens when your family does not have this─

Unconsciously, you are rooted in lack of money. Or maybe you are the oddball of the family, and went off and got a lot of money by making your dream come true. And you would love to share how, but your family will just not accept you because you are different. 

Or your family values materialism and money a lot, so you decide to be different and live off a hippy life in another country. But secretly you are constantly worried about your lack of money, and constantly money becomes a psychic force that drains you. 

How do you bring your energy into balance so you are not caught in materialism and following unconscious bonds and agreements, or caught in rejecting and rebelling that actually leads into losing something essential

THe best way is to do what you love. THat is why Taurus also rules love! Because doing what you love attracts money. Love is liquid wealth, as in, when you love, you care for your body, what you eat, you care to have loving relationships with everyone around you, you care, you love, you are happy. Maybe not all the time, because happiness, like a hummingbird, fluctuates, going from flower to flower. But there is a certain balance to love, to peace, to inward harmony (love). The world may not always reward love, because we are in a society influenced by war and inner conflict. People are stressed and go through jobs that kill their sense of inward harmony, take their time and lower their health. If we momentarily shift values, and start valuing moments of people, moments of joy and freedom, eventually we are able to listen more clearly to what our soul and spirit desire to express. Life was not meant to be based in scheduled or routine payments, if you depend on a job to get by, and a paycheck at the end of the month, even if you are passionate about what you do, there is not desire to expand or multiply the energy. Money is either accumulated or eventually is… gone. Therefore you become a slave to the paycheck, like a dog waiting for a treat. 

But who am I to say this? I am someone who has based her life around what I love, which is myself, me, astrology, my family, my community, Mexico, the earth, nature, symbols, sex, hehe, the goddess, elements, writing… Everything except money. And around my brain I asked myself, why, how so, if when I was a little girl, I was sure I would be rich. Where was this coming from? When I was a little girl I thought I would have people working for me and paying them a lot of money. Why, then, was I thirty, now and had no money? It made me feel like a beggar and a joke. 

Everyone says, get a small job. And they are correct, I was so sure I would be wealthy because I am, because I am wealthy in self love and wisdom and my own impulse to go forwards and follow my intuition, however, I was poor in practicality and execution. Meaning, it is not about money, consistently, it is about how we feel about ourselves. If I had felt humbled enough perhaps I would have settled for a practical job with the right where I would be enslaved to a paycheck, but what is a small sacrifice for long term achievement… But I never thought about this, I never thought about this because my family’s values were altered by patriarchy, I wanted to a be writer, not a house woman, like my mother or my grandmother, I did not want to get married and have children and be supported by either a man, or the government, like my mother had to be because she could not get a job with 6 children and would rather spend her whole time complaining about the situation, instead of thinking of a different way… but what am i saying, i was the same way… could not come up with a solution that satisfied my ego and my empty purse. It influenced me. It influenced me to be floating in my life, it influenced me to understand that I had to merge with unconscious qualities that may not have been easy to.

But learning that it was never about money in the first place, was my first realization. Money is an attitude, and anyone can have a lot of money and then very little. Money is love, it is energy, it matters, becomes matter, becomes the food you eat, or the perfume you wear, or the clothes you like, but you do not need money for that, you just need the bag and the most valuable bag is empty. From emptiness you can create everything, so do not focus on creating money but something you truly love with enough space to give you the WORLD.  

new moon in libra self-reflection

New moon in Libra
Themes:

Heart break transformative pain and new relationships 
Question for this new moon:

What is holding you back from being your best self? 

    Libra is a sign ruled by the planet venus, in western astrology, Venus represents the goddess of love and beauty, a value of symbols attributed to Libra and Taurus. Libra and Taurus are considered sister signs. Superficially, these signs rule beauty, money, falling in love, sensuality, materialism and material objects, vanity and selfishness.
    The daughters of my grandmother an Aries, are both Libra. My mother and my aunt, my cousin, my aunt’s daughter is also a Libra, and I am a Taurus. A lot of people believe astrology is a system that programs people to believe in stereotypes and broad ideas that apply to nearly everyone. I agree that astrology is a blueprint of energy that can create specific patterns that apply to everyone in general. Your sun sign can speak to you in general ways. I agree that astrology has a grasp on personality stereotypes as well. 
    But I also believe, that astrology can speak to the programmed and established reality. That by decoding certain systems you can undo a whole matrix system that is firmly planted as an established control system in your brain therefore having the option to continue with this established system OR break the “personality”. The personality is what you have inherited as yours through it being passed down, as a reaction to the initial triggers within your childhood environment. If your family had good habits, you will have good habits, you will be orderly and intuitively you will gravitate towards orderly environments where you can establish daily routines, and order. But maybe, there will be little emotional depth and self-expression, these last two will then be the “unconcious” qualities you have, but are unexpressed. Or like me, maybe you grew up in a family of judgment and criticism that defined femininity as passivity, motherhood, and having a marriage. Every woman, not just in my family, but in my community, establishes their personality through these conscious values, motherhood, domestic work, and feeding their childrens or husbands, having a husband. The most highly valued women in my community, have husbands and marry. The lowest valued women are unmarried but have partners who usually are struggling with addiction and constantly fail as providers. 
    Imagine that observing this system as a child, you refuse it. YOU simply say Nope, not going to do that. So you become an outcast, the rebel child. First, you refuse to be perceived as “pretty”. That meant to abandon any sort of personal style or self-expression. That meant abandoning partnerships and relationships, dating, going out to date. That meant abandoning a part of my self-esteem and self-expression to go as far as becoming unattractive to my own self. It’s not only saying No, but going against imposed traditions, rejecting them, rebelling against them, fighting against it, and thus, fighting a part of yourself. Like if all women were born wearing handcuffs and suddenly you are born without hands. Is it really the hand that is bad or the cuff? 
    I discovered that in my process of self liberation I had cut off a hand. I had created a problem with my self worth and self esteem, I had become codependent to anger and really, to a wound that still unconsciously tied me to my feminine lineage and all the women that came before me, who had also severed a part of their soul, by implanting in their daughters chains instead of freedom of choice. 
    But, this does not sound like astrology! What does this have to do with my horoscope? Astrology holds a key in recognizing long held patterns inside your DNA, that are evoked through conscious and unconcious structures that create human struggle. Astrology is sustained only through an assumption that we come from the stars, or that our consciousness finds a mirror reflection in the movement of the stars, and as far fetched as this may sound, this is why natal charts can be scary accurate. Not just because they are able to pinpoint specific parts of the personality, but the structure behind what creates that personality. Obviously, astrologers are also caught in this personality illusion, and most of them read horoscopes and generalized patterns instead of tapping further into symbolism and meaning.
    I redefine astrology as 
1. Observation of the cycles of the main planets of our solar system, and then other prominent stars in the night sky. 
2. Observation of how what is above, connects to what is down below. 
And 3rd, inner observation, inner study and inner focus, to be aligned with your own gifts, energy and self-fulfillment. 
    This new moon in libra is an opportunity to identify what we have fractured, fragmented or cut off in order to be part of a group, family, or community, OR in order to reject a group, family or community. It is an opportunity to unite with true freedom, which is not found in being accepted by or you rejecting, but by inner balance. Decision is not in a yes or no answer, it is a process of self-integration, of listening quietly to your innermost self. Can you tune in to your frequency? Or are you held back by voices that hurt, that criticize, judge and ultimately obstruct your process of forgiveness and love?
    Judging our family, but especially our mothers or fathers, is a judgment of the creative energy that gave us life and will also give us death. Judging our current reality brings a sense of moral superiority that is false, until you tune in to your own unique purpose, you will realize you actually belong here, you belong to a family, a group and community. You belong to human connection and warmth. The world is in chaos because it feeds separation, war, and violence. But by acting the same way we do not become free, it is just as if we were cutting off our hearts, or souls in an attempt to punish the world for the way it is. The only person we are truly punishing is ourselves, in that process we also condemn the world to more karmic suffering. 
    We need real work, especially within our communities. We can stop giving so much to social value and social relationships that actually only cuddle our insecurities. We give value to having material things that mean nothing, because they are perishable. Having an cellphone means you can communicate, but having an iphone, means it looks good and you invested lots of money on it. But when there is no substance behind your communication, an iphone or any phone whatsoever is idiotic, and also turns you idiotic, scrolling endlessly through social media, hours wasted in insecure comparison to others, gossip and watching news about famous people that are only pretty externally, only wealthy materially, but do not have any significant values, or carry any significant message. 
    I studied journalism because I wanted to communicate because I felt I had something to say. I write now, because of the same reason. The masses of communication are taken up by ideas that erode true intelligence, reason and logic. Which is where many mistake astrology for crap, because it is not grounded in reality, or science, or materialism, or whatever. But when you have the results in yourself- that is astrology helped me transform my personality, my body, my self-love and expression, my relationships, my family, my everything… except one thing. Materially astrology has not given me stable employment. But I am willing to take a risk, because I rather read a natal chart, give a good introspective session, than have a stable job, get a fancy cellphone, go shopping to distract myself from my coming death and superficiality and that I actually feel empty inside because I have no purpose. The problem is not the stable job, anyway, it is having no values that sustain inner discipline or self-esteem. 
    I had many problems because of my rebel nature and my contradictory ideas, studying journalism, but not nursing like my mother wanted me to, choosing to travel when I did not have a stable job, choosing to go in a weight loss journey without a gym membership… etc.  
    Now, I can choose to be part of my community, even go as far, as having a stable job for the sake of personal stability, but I know deep within myself, that a job or money does not define me, it is just a means to an end, a means of building a new structure based on real values, real self-worth and esteem for myself, my community, my family and my whole ancestry tree. 
    Small sacrifices can lead to a long term project. This new moon you can plant a seed, even shed a sacrifice, what can you let go of to make space for this wonderful new creation? Your new found sense of love and inner peace, the most precious gift.

awakening goddess

week of oct. 13- oct. 19:

moods of this week

for accessing astrology placements go here https://horoscopes.astro-seek.com/current-planets-astrology-transits-planetary-positions

This week brings a cathartic transmutation of our emotional reactivity, that can be through causing the following symptoms: exploding, obsessing, or simply spiraling in a negative pattern of the past. This is the conjunction of Mars and Mercury. Each planet represents a function of the psyche. In this blog, you will gain a deeper understanding of why each planet relates to the psyche, what that means and how to use this. But this is the first post so be patient.

Each sign a region of the cosmos as the earth rotates on its axis. What is happening, cosmically, is that we are in an inner struggle with a vampire OR if you want to imagine it as a vortex of coincidences that drain energy through making you lose purpose, focus, or vitality. This is because the conjunction is in the sign of Scorpio, meaning, these entities that we are struggling with are part of a demonic pact that we have inherited through blood and thus, sex, reproductive chains within our lineage. 

Though, not everyone experiences this at the same level of consciousness. We filter this energy given the personality, identity and cultural group we belong in. It is not the same for someone who lives in a rural community with limited access to education, as someone in the city with a more open sense of gender and sexuality, or someone raised in a conservative family and living under the same traditions of their family for monetary purposes. 

But no matter, we all share a sense of purpose, because at our core all humans are looking to understand themselves deeper, either through power, roles or sex. We all have deep identities with things that make us whole, and therefore things that trigger our growth. This is ultimately the purpose of all cosmic alignments, to trigger growth of consciousness. 

Monday: Moon conjunction jupiter, Mars approaching alignment with mercury.

We start the week feeling benevolent and generous, our ego is exalted and grateful to be alive,we start feeling like we have some type of grand thing to show to the world. But unconsciously, we are climbing into a trap because this week mercury and mars will align rupturing through emotional wounds and deep seated anger. 

When the moon is conjunct jupiter our emotions become magnified and we tend to idealize

and filter these emotions through an *I am Good* and I see myself in a positive light, which often

becomes as well, *And everyone unlike me is not good* what I mean, there is a social righteousness, that masks our desire to be judged as beneficial, there are masks seeking validation and approval.

But if the moods change? Do you still feel good about yourself? Or do these highs create intense lows?

Tuesday, Venus enters Libra

After being opposite to saturn, all last week - which let me discuss, because it was quite the opposition. An opposition in astrology is a tension that is felt deep within the psyche, a fragmentation, usually you identify with one of the opposing planets. Venus opposite Saturn brings a conflict of the past, especially revolving authority figures like grandparents, elders, or teachers, it puts at odds with youthfulness. This I can see more clearly, if we examine that in the last centuries most women were held to punishing standards of worth and value related to tradition, religion and social judgements that punished sexuality and female reproductive autonomy. Women come from a repression of their rights, bodies and even menstrual cycles.

From this conflict, stems another generation of women with self-esteem issues and a deep sense of rebellion, sexual freedom and empowerment, but also women who compare to other women in terms of success, who forget to reclaim their emotional freedom. That is women, who are drained of their magnetism and then get caught in oppressive relationships with their cultural group or communities, women who also become successful in the eyes of men and capitalism but sometimes, sacrifice healthy relationships with themselves, their families and romantic partners. This is the opposition with Saturn, where young women can reject the past or break from it too furiously, not out of clarity, but out of self-victimization and martyrdom. Pay attention to this pattern, because when unobserved it becomes a prison of destructive relationships, you cannot help yourself, even if you love them you seek ways to destroy what you love.

When Venus enters Libra, we can feel more in harmony or at least more confident in that we can have better relationships, but there is still a deep incline to feeling misunderstood and unloved as Saturn is still quite opposite Venus' path in the sky. The need for validation starts to grow deeper. validation comes when you are not doing the work on your worth. But I do! But I do feel like I am the baddest bitch!  Watch me dance, watch me blah blah blah. That is moon conjunct Jupiter, false sense of optimism based on voices that mask our ego instead of going deeper. Working on value does not imply positivity based on comparing your worth to others, being the best, baddest, or highest is still a comparison. Working on your worth is a discernment of what gives you real worth and value, in this case, for this generation, it is the flagellated part of women that become the most valuable, what were you punished for? What have you been rejected for? What have you been fooled into rejecting about yourself, your family and cultural group? Through self-study, wisdom, and purpose you create a true confidence and begin to care and value yourself more deeply, not relying on being watched by others to be perceived as beautiful, wealthy, or successful.

Most of our worth is defined by social media and social groups. Venus in libra brings a consciousness of trying to find balance and inner peace and sometimes that requires taking time off mirrors, screens and comparison.  In fact, spending time by yourself is a tool of bringing back your focus and attention to yourself. If you don’t want to hear it in my voice, hear Maya Angelou, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-M4jxroQNrI

Wednesday Air trine between Pluto Venus and Uranus 

Today we have so many communications and specially, feeling airs of revolution

around our idea of love. Everyone is feeling like something is changing. But everyone understands this at different levels of depth. Similarly, there are pressures to evolve to a different level of understanding our purpose, path, like we are seeking something deeper.

Today, can be a good day for starting new patterns of speaking to oneself as a way to remember our essence. Think of what bothers you right now, think of how someone who unconditionally loved you would speak to you, console you and nourish you. and say it, speak it, console yourself and unconditionally love yourself through one act of service. Practice this every day. 

Thursday moon in leo squaring to mercury and mars in scorpio 

We see an eruption of anger or movement forwards. Moon in leo exalts our ego.

Let's speak a little about the ego to carl jung, the ego is  the center of consciousness responsible for personality and identity.  Leo rules ego, the heart and light conciousness and creativity. MOST IMPORTANTLY, Leo rules the inner child.

Mars and mercury speak of the transmutation of the lower mind to process deep seated anger.

Anger is a source of draining energy, which establishes vampiric relationships. When our anger is triggered our power  of control is taken away, vital energy is also drained because the body feels triggered. Emotional manipulators love people who react emotionally, either through victimizing, martyrdom and anger… These reactions  are replays of drama. When our ego is triggered by some sort of external situation, instead of reacting, we can step back, breath and integrate. The ego becomes triggered by emotions that threaten the protective layers of personality, under there... Under there is true conciousness.

To breath through being triggered, is like consoling the inner child having a tantrum, this is extremely difficult to do! But in realizing, that we are not just our identity and the stories we have told ourselves about ourselves, what is correct and what is not correct. When we stop seeing ourselves as just our identity and lived experiences, we connect to a deeper sense of awareness, we no longer seek reactions or manipulative relationships,

but a deeper awareness of needing time to reflect, let go and surrender to a new way of being. 

Friday, Saturday and Sunday

sun in a triangle square to chiron and jupiter

venus and the moon conjunct opposite neptune and saturn 

This week started with a conjunction of the moon and Jupiter in the sign of cancer, and it ends with the potentialized energy of these planets, that is a reawakening of intuition (moon) and spiritual purpose (Jupiter). Through healing - sun square quiron and jupiter, or in this case emotional alchemy.

The masks of superficiality are a tool of enlightenment if used properly, as the week finishes off, the moon is drained half of its full moon light (full moon in Aries October 7th), so we see a deeper connection than a weekly calendar. This connection is a deep internal healing of the divine feminine. We have two parts of our psyche, we have a father and a mother, a left hand and a right heart, humans represent the balance between light and darkness, death and life, this is simply the world we live in. But we only have ONE heart, ONE brain, ONE mouth. The heart, the brain and mouth are conductors of consciousness, and human beings whether they believe it or not, are ONE consciousness that has been trapped in a war against itself, it's own people, and human race (sun square).

Women or the divine feminine are used to further increase the breach in our consciousness, we are used in the most obvious ways that sometimes even we support, misunderstanding the system within us. Misunderstanding that our brain is plugged into a false sense of energy that is not our own, but a subtle, malefic, brainwashing. And the most obvious way to understand this, is through your relationships, romantic or familial. The shadow of the moon and  feminine power is surrendering our dreams and therefore magnetism to relationships that disrespect our essense. In romantic relationships, we become our mothers, focused on nurturing and creating a third being, becoming angry when men take and reciprocate the least they are able to. In family relationships, we become children with insecurities or abandonment issues, even as adult women, still demanding that our mothers change or become good mothers, when in reality our mothers are independent beings, they were not meant to be mothers for their WHOLE lifes, do you see how unjust is to demand another soul to always nurture you, or nurture you in the RIGHT ways? We get stuck in the past, never growing up, always asking another to take care of us when we feel vulnerable.

That is the issue. WHEN WE FEEL, feelings and moods are momentary, they pass like clouds in our consciousness. But instead of allowing our emotions to teach us, by observing them, we tend to attend our emotional needs through asking sometimes, begging another human to nurture, attend, or care for our vulnerability that is when we become emotionally drained and enter these vampiric emotional patterns or habits that make us codependent, make us compare, make us fractured. 

When we govern our emotional world, we govern our moon. IN astrology, the moon rules feelings, emotions, the past, karma within our blood, and our mothers' and maternal grandmother. This is especially important if you are healing mother wounds, healing worth and magnetism, controlling your emotions, containing your emotions, is a form of relentless inner love, that fights for you, that defends you, that protects you, without needing to react in a defensive or angry way. Without needing to be exhausted defending your identity over and over again. When you know what you are, there is no need to react. Instead, you begin using your emotions to create your dreams instead of your prisons.

This essay is inspired by Master Shi Heng Yi and his teachings especially in relationship to womanhood and self-discipline, "Don't surrender your magnetism, don't surrender your clarity

or peace." Instead preserve your energy to create your dreams, many great women have also said this, but I chose to cite Master Shi Heng Yi for his guiding clarity, mental discernment and guiding divine masculine strength.